Even when we are little girls, we have an idea of what we want our children's lives to look like, what we want them to be...
I remember thiking about all the things in my life as a child..or challenges I would face and I would dream that someday I would have little one of my own and things would be different...The problem is that I am who I am. I still posess some of the same faults, quirks and ingrained values that existed in my own childhood and throughout my life. My biggest question as a mommy with a child who has not yet been tainted by the world is how do I raise my son to be everything I've always wanted him to be?...
Darn, I don't thnk I have as much control as I thought I would. I suppose I should just give him the freedom to be himself and pray that God will direct him. I've realized though, another thing I can do....I can only control myself. This isn't the easy route. If I want my child to follow through and complete things in life, I too must follow through. If I want him to work hard for the things he wants in life, I too must work hard for the things I want. If I want him to be a man of prayer, I too must pray. I've been thinking a lot about this lately. God, please give me the grace and the strength to let go and the bravery to do the things I have not yet done so that my son can see the right way to live, not just hear it from his nagging mommy.
Victories today: We joined a local mommy grouop! Hoping to make some strong frienships and make connections for play dates. We had lunch with daddy on lunch hour. We had lots of smiles.
Funny moments: Green beans and apple sauce do not make pleasant poopy diapers. :)
Friday, August 10, 2012
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