Mommy's Hopes

Even when we are little girls, we have an idea of what we want our children's lives to look like, what we want them to be...

I remember thiking about all the things in my life as a child..or challenges I would face and I would dream that someday I would have little one of my own and things would be different...The problem is that I am who I am.  I still posess some of the same faults, quirks and ingrained values that existed in my own childhood and throughout my life.  My biggest question as a mommy with a child who has not yet been tainted by the world is how do I raise my son to be everything I've always wanted him to be?...

Darn, I don't thnk I have as much control as I thought I would.  I suppose I should just give him the freedom to be himself and pray that God will direct him.  I've realized though, another thing I can do....I can only control myself.  This isn't the easy route.  If I want my child to follow through and complete things in life, I too must follow through.  If I want him to work hard for the things he wants in life, I too must work hard for the things I want.  If I want him to be a man of prayer, I too must pray.  I've been thinking a lot about this lately.  God, please give me the grace and the strength to let go and the bravery to do the things I have not yet done so that my son can see the right way to live, not just hear it from his nagging mommy.

Victories today:  We joined a local mommy grouop!  Hoping to make some strong frienships and make connections for play dates.  We had lunch with daddy on lunch hour.  We had lots of smiles.

Funny moments: Green beans and apple sauce do not make pleasant poopy diapers. :)